: hey. relapse doesn't mean that you are a failure or anything of the sort. Recovery takes a lifetime. No one is ever "recovered" because you never know if you are going to fall back into old ways but the rest of your life is a lot of time so relapse is acceptable. I hope that you find happiness really soon because you deserve it. Stay safe! (make sure none of them get infected) I suck at words and making people feel better so I'm sorry if this was useless.
You know you’re right, recovery doesn’t happen over night. I just didn’t see myself ever doing this again, things got hard and I acted too fast, I feel a sense of relief now it’s done, and it’s almost an incentive to not do it again. This wasn’t useless at all, it’s nice that someone has actually spoke to me about it, I’m just used to going about it with nobody asking so thank you